Escape To Where?
His mother was there. He only knew this only because he felt it. The shape before him was more of a suggestion, it’s actual form shifting constantly. Growing and shrinking, flickering wildly, like the flame on a wick. Her body sent a shiver down his spine which he could only feel in thought. With it’s pale figure and continuous distortion of dimension it was an unsettling sight. Her face was different, while it was still only a faded memory for the boy and quite undefined, it’s faint features and expression were both soft and caring.
They were facing each other in the darkness of a landscape which had no real definable features, except to say it was infinitely large and just as dismal. The boy didn’t bother to look around, didn’t bother to try and understand what was happening. For him this moment was reality.
“Sade.” It was more a thought that entered is head then an actual sound that left her lips. His emotions were building, tears formed in his eyes.
“You must be strong now, Sade.” She reached for his face to smear his tears away. Her touch was warm, which only made him feel worse.
“How can I be anything but what I am, in a world that is so completely against me.” Anger welled up in him beside the sadness, the mixture creating a feeling of overwhelming despair.
“It will only get worse if you can not learn to fight it.” She embraced him in a warmth that he hadn’t felt in what seemed to him to be forever.
“Listen to me Sade. Reality has you fooled. Your feelings of helplessness are an illusion. The blame you cast on yourself is unjustified. It’s more my fault then anyones.”
He was bawling now into the warmth of her distorting form. It was almost becoming too much for him, he was beginning to question it. While his eyes were open, there came the sudden sensation that they were not. Just before the thought that he may be dreaming could cross his mind, the voice of his mother boomed over his thoughts.
“Listen to me Sade, this is as real as anything else. You can’t forget this, you have to carry these words with you, I’m pleading with you. You’re part of me, you live while I do not. You’re fading though, if you don’t stand up for yourself you will never get a chance at living a real life. You’re all that your sister has, you’re all that you have. You must be stronger then this.”
She stroked his hair, his cheek, then pushed him away from her.
“There isn’t only one way out, there are multiple paths for you. Don’t let your anger guide you.”
Sades eyes opened then, to a reality which he wasn’t happy to see. Images of his dream were flying through his mind, most rapidly deteriorating. He rolled onto his side while he tried as hard as he could to recall as much of the dream as possible. As it seeped from a faded image into something more real, much of what his mother had said to him began to bounce around wildly in his mind.
